I always get motivated by something, or by myself..., then, when i put alot of effort on something, but it's not agreed by others, like it's not being appreciated, i'll get very upset. Then, i'll throw questions to myself, that am i capable and suitable in this industry. Struggling if it's time to face the fact that i'm lame and quit, or tell myself not to give up, one day, i will success? Afterall, i still choose to stay, because i belief i can do better. There’s where i start to motivate myself. then, i’ll get dissapointed, then i’ll struggle again...

I don't know about others, but that's what kept repeating all these years. Everyone says art is subjective, there’s no right or wrong, there’s no pretty or ugly. But, there’s still awards, books, reviews, lecturers to judge and differentiate between the good ones and the normal ones and the bad ones. How they actually judge it? From what aspects? Well, I’m just curious, tho, i’m the one who always pre-judge people anyway..... hhaha, whooops.

Somehow for me, i guess i care too much about others comment. No matter if it’s good or bad, it’ll just suddenly change my mood. Because, when we created something, the first thing is to expose and see if anyone like it? or anyone hate it? It's just normal that we seek for attention. But I guess it’s time to learn care less about all this things that’ll make me paranoid. I should know where i stand, and i should know myself better than anyone in this world!

Again, i’m not giving up at all! I’m here to tell myself not to quit, and motivate myself to work harder in future!
Art is a playground, it’s fun, and i’m not having enough fun here! So, no matter if my work sucks or craps! I'll still be around... sorry!